Heartbreak

I can’t stop crying I’m screaming and crying into my pillow and have been for a while now I’m so heartbroken I just wanted to be that perfect girlfriend for her but I guess I tried too hard and pushed her away now she hates me because I let my emotions take over and get the best of me I never should have sent those messages I wish I had friends I could go to and tell all my secrets too but my friend is always too busy to help me